Where to from here?

So it's 1:15am and my sister just messaged me.

"So it's 1 am and mum walks in my room. I walk out and find dad snacking on bread and peanut butter and mum walking eating nectarines. Thought 1. Food addicts. Thought 2. Frank's message :( mind forever tainted  *shudder* needed to share my nightmares with somebody. LOL lucky you"

As you may find, we kind of think/write/talk alike at times. Anyway..this got me up of my half frozen, "what am going to do with myself" stupor. I was still awake. Frank, my husband had sent my sister a message a few days ago. Earlier that night we had dropped by to my parent's place to visit one night and they weren't home. My sister, who's a mooch (but thinks for some reason I'm the biggest mooch of all) still lives with them (she's 22). She actually had some friends over and they were watching the telly. The real reason why we dropped by my parent's was because it had been raining all week and I needed to get my load of sheets dry in the dryer. We wouldn't have stuck around as we didn't have much to do there. We already had dinner and the TV in the lounge was occupied. However hubby decided we should wait and so I decided to grad a DVD from the shelf and watch a DVD in my parent's room while we wait. Hubby was totally against it. He felt it was just "wrong" for him to be "chilling" in my parent's room. But after 10 minutes of coercion ..he relented. For the next 1.5 hours we watched a Katherine Heigl and Josh Duhamel film, "Life As We Know It", in my parent's room. Fran insisting he would stay seated on the floor, next to the bed. And so he did, for the whole duration of the film.

Sometime during the movie, I did need to forage for something.. I don't remember what it was.. some loose change maybe?:-), no I can't remember.. but during my exploration of mum and dad's room for whatever-it-was.. we came across some interesting things in their drawers.

Now late that night when we were already home, my husband is semi-seated on the bed chuckling to himself. I was brushing my teeth nearby and in a muffled manner asked him what was so funny. He explained how he sent my sister a message, revealing the suprising contents of my mum's bedside drawers. She replied with an even more exciting list of "things you wish you didn't know your parents owned". GREAT VISUALS GUYS THANKS!... well ..in my sister's case.. that's what you get for being a major mooch and living at home for so long! haha. Frank also got his kicks out of it and loved the idea that they were still "doing it" and probably loving it. EWWWWW I can't even stomach that I finished that last sentence. So explains why my sister's midnight message was quite rousing.

ANYWAY... Late in June this year, I left the world of full-time work to: 1) complete my studies in Remedial Massage, 2) spend more time with  2 year-old son, 3) do things I could never dream of doing working full-time, eg wash dishes and cook every now and then, watch daytime TV, etc 4) avoid the extreme stresses that usually accompany balancing a full-time office job, running a home, studying and caring for a little one.

It's been great and not-so-great. Long story short - I've travelled with my mini-family in this time and had a ball; learnt the art of selling make-up and cosmetics "in my own spare time" with the help of a successful network marketing brand of the Tupperware Group; learnt that although I love to do the selling and "sharing" of the products and have a special knack for make women feel absolutely divine...I can never make a career out of it for myself, just a downright hobby; found that our mortgage cannot survive on one income alone; I got to cook a few meals here and there and wash the dishes at least 3 times a week as opposed to at least once a week when I was working full-time; found that I need to look for work again and I am absolutely unsure of what I really wanna get into.. same old stuff I used to do..or not.. don't really think i have much of a choice.

Anyway.. at present, we are currently behind one month's worth of mortgage payments and have defaulted on one or two other bills. It ain't that bad, things could be worse, but it aint that great either. We've decided that the best way to "save" and also be in the financial "green" is by:

1) Me to find a full-time job
2) If I get a job, find suitable childcare for the little one
3) Rent our place out and live at my mother-in-law's house, which is currently lived-in by my sister-in-law, her hubby and their son. This setting would take place no later than the 1st week of next year 2011 and will be as such for an undetermined length of time
4) Work and pay, work and pay..that is our current plan.

I have submitted ONE application to a certain government agency for an Executive Assistant to the Chair role.. hope I at least get an interview for that one, it took me ONE WHOLE DAY to complete, but more the five days just thinking about it. It seems to pay double the amount I was paid in my first "real job" after uni. Will hope and see.

Also if I do get it, I realy, really need to get the issue of proper childcare arrangements sorted. One of the main reasons why I stopped working is because the freekin' costs to have another look after my beloved son was costing more than half of my daily wages..the rest went to my travel costs, food and impulse buys from being so stressed! I also missed him very much. I just wish we lived in a work\ld where we can take kids to work and there would be designated Nannies/Childcare centres for them there and were fully paid by our employers. If only.

The place has been put up on the rental market just this week by a pretty "professional acting" agency.. hope they can at least get the place rented for $400/week..that would be nice.

Anyway... even if I'm not working and earning a steady income, I don't feel like I've let grass grow on my feet or anything. I've given everything my best.. and found somethings I am passionate about and really enjoy doing... I've found out that their can be dark side to living your "dream life".. and now I'm on a quest to find out what the next upcoming stage of my life will be about. Now, it does sound like I'm just talking about me,me,me here.. but in all things I try to do what's best not just for me, but for my family.. who mean everything to me.

Fingers crossed that tomorrow's gonna be a great day with even more advancements in my current plight.

Oh by the way.. I'm still in the middle of studying and although making some progress...it is very slow going and the current bane of my existence!

PEACE OUT
-Mush